ok im 24 and im trying to make a cd of all the music i used to like when i was little (4th-8th grade-ish) i figured if i put what i can think of so far someone out there might be able to help me add more to this list

the toadies - possum kingdom
sponge - molly (16 candles down the drain)
hum - stars
collective soul - the world i know
better than ezra - good
freedy johnston - bad reputation
pj harvey - down by the water
primitive radio gods - phonebooth
butthole surfers - pepper
silverchair - tomorrow
deadeye dick - new age girl
everclear - heroin girl
hole - violet
the offspring - self esteem
green jelly - little pig little pig

ive been having some crazy mood swings. i dont know why, because i already know things will be ok. theres certain things that just dont happen for no reason. yes, i believe there is a reason, and that everything will end up right.

ive been through much worse times. i scared myself last night. i brought myself back to one of those times. i thought about it for the first time in years. i thought about a time when i was trying so desperately to make things right when nothing was. i didnt realize all along the only thing i had to do was hold on, and things ended up the way they were meant to.

i am not the same. i beat that version of me.

i will always know who i am and what i want and where i belong. even if the things around me dont go the way i want... it doesnt make a fuck

sometimes i feel like i have nothing. ive worked so hard to get a real life, but it doesnt matter. it all means nothing. its all so empty. its all pointless because

you arent here